Thursday, December 30, 2010

The Past/Present/Future


Big M Started pre-school 2 days a week! I was pretty worried that first day. She can be a timid sort and takes a while to warm up to new situations/people - a bit like her old mum I suppose. In the end I was ridiculously pleased, relieved and proud to see her walk in with confidence; no tears, no drama. Calm down Mum, I can totally handle this!! And so she could. Another lesson learned - don't under estimate the little ones. The force is strong in them.

Big Daddy took a massive risk and went into business with his brothers. It has more than paid off. They still talk to each other and we have money! The downside - it takes up five nights a week. Lonely times for moi. I have coped really well and have enjoyed all the movies and starting my blog! In saying that, the husband working most nights is definitely not in the grand plan! We have, however, managed to free ourselves from a heavy burden of debt. I am now a firm believer that credit cards are pure evil and not one shall find themselves a welcome spot in our hard working wallets again.

My best friend left Sydney and left me almost friendless again. Its been hard coping without your really good, long-term friends and my time in Australia has hammered home how important my friends are and how much I miss them. Making new friends is great but can be really exhausting. Starting from scratch, no shared history, sometimes you just want to reminisce over a few. You know, remember when? Still in 2010 I have made good friends with several new people, so hears to new adventures...

I started working again!! Only a couple of wee shifts for Big Daddy but oh my goodness, I love it!! After being at home full time for two years, it has been a welcome escape into adult world and not too strenuous.

Two of my brothers got married on the other side of the world and unfortunately, I couldn't attend. That was hard and is just a wee reminder of how much it sucks having two amazing families but on opposite sides of the world. On the positive - we have two large amazing families!!!

My beautiful little sister and my little, much younger brother came from across the globe to stay with us for six weeks. We had a ball. I miss them so much.

The devastating news that one of my best friends, aged 31 has been diagnosed with cancer. A bolt from the blue which knocked me off my feet for a while. In true form she is being completely amazing. What an inspiration. Good luck my little mate. Thinking of you always x

And so to 2011, its going to be an emotional year, I think. Some hard goodbyes and long awaited reunions. We are planning to move the family back to the UK in the middle of the year. Big M will start at primary school full time and who knows, God willing, maybe we could muster up the courage to try for no 3???!! Phew, I'm making myself tired thinking about it all. First up we have a road trip. Our first proper family holiday in Australia to beautiful, calm, (hopefully sunny) Port Stephens. Summer holidays!!!!


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Brain Drain

I am wasted. Unfortunately it's not due to drink. My brain is refusing to go into fourth gear, its stuck in mabye second or third. To all intense purposes I look normal but, underneath the facade, the wiring needs a good overhaul. You see mushy brain went like this today; forgot my pin number in a shop (yes, I was only just blogging about that and it actually happened.) This led to pleading nice patient girl in bank to let me have some money, which I duly signed for only to realise that the particular bank card I was using is still in my maiden name!!!! (That is a whole other story which is too boring to recall.) Luckily, nice, patient, 'just learning' wee bank lassie didn't notice that I had completely signed the wrong name so I took the money and scampered. The whole reason I needed the money in the first place was to buy Big M's three lovely pre-school teachers a pressie in time for school finishing in 15 mins!! Once again I had forgotten to do this previously. Of course, once we were all back home completing the witching hour, it dawned on me that I actually need another four, yes four pressies for Little E's occasional care teachers - tomorrow!!! Grrrr. Its all my brains fault, not me.  I also lost my phone - again and now have no numbers and no idea what time Big M's dress rehearsal starts tomorrow. I am currently drowning in fuzziness. The ideas and actions don't seem to be linking and all the espresso in the world is not helping. I am choking my way through the breaststroke whilst everyone else seems to be gliding past in the fast lane. Foggy, hazy brain please get in gear so I can make it to Christmas day and ease the pain of said loss of apparent brain function with lots of wine......

Tuesday, December 7, 2010


Just been to the gym, being the ultra sexy super mum that I am. I actually have to put a bit of work in to maintaining this yummy mummy body of mine. Lol, sorry was daydreaming there. Back to reality, I hadn't seen that gym/torture chamber place for a fortnight and I have generally had the 'I'm totally over it' feeling. I dragged my sorry ass out today, oh and speaking of asses, mine was swinging like a church bell because I bravely wore shorts for the first time in quite a while. Yes, the short wearing feels really different from wearing the Lycra 3/4 training pants. They kind of hold things in, but these shorts.... I could feel gravity pulling that ass of mine. Bugger off gravity! I actually thought it might fall out completely. Its not fair, most people worry about their boobs falling out, but seeing as little E reduced mine to empty socks after a year of breastfeeding, I need never have that particular concern. Anyway, the whole point of the post was to say that I feel great for going to the gym. Really, my brain feels like its whirring a bit faster. I had been worrying that perhaps it had almost stopped entirely after being unable to recall my children's dates of births when asked the other day. Oh and I still have a slight panic every time I have to put my pin number in - just in case I can't remember it -that has happened. Now, unfortunately it's time to exercise the housekeeping muscles....

Thursday, December 2, 2010


Smiles, tears, joy, pain, intensity, the unexpected, amazement, purpose, meaning, alive, unbelievable love, belonging, home. I love being mummy. Thank you world xxxx  

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